First off, I want to applaud you for recognizing the harm in trying to keep a relationship at all cost. I’ve been there, and my relationship that should have ended after four months ended after nine years of dating and fifteen years of marriage.
Second, I want to encourage you to really find out who you are and what you like to do. Fall in love with being yourself. Become your best friend. Because, when you love yourself and you are your best friend, a significant-other-relationship can find you balanced.